I understand all of what you have said. I am not a Doc, but I worked ER for a long time, and hated the way psy patients were treated. Before my total breakdown, I had so many depressive problems, but it seemed like no one noticed. When I had my breakdown no one called, visited, sent a letter, ect. during, or even after. I haven't kept in contact with anyone that I worked with, because the people who said they were my friends, I found out they weren't.