Thanks once again, Forum.

I can express myself and learn from others here in ways that I could not in therapy.

Unlike some others, I do believe there is some merit in the psychoanalytic observations and abstractions that pass for “theory” in psychoanalysis. Lots of non-merit, too.

In particular, I wrote on stopdog’s recent poll on internalizing a therapist, that I had found my last therapist (several others, too) to be a “shaming, blaming, rejecting faker” and that I would certainly not want to internalize that.

However – the fact that I even wrote that allowed me to express a negative view that I saw or felt about that last therapist – AND

I can’t help but wonder if I don’t have already/still an internalized shaming, blaming, rejecting faker representing my mother, grandmother, aunts, and even the general female culture in which I grew up. Not directly, usually, but in non-verbal glowers of disapproval and emotional withdrawal.

In which case, I wonder if what I have needed was to “eject” what had been internalized, at least as much if not more than I have needed internalize something else.

Anybody else have any ideas about this, or experience with something similar?