Hi T, it's not your fault. You've been good to me. I hope you're not upset with me for making that stupid mistake about the scheduling. It was an honest mistake even though it seemed like weird timing. Anyway it's not your fault that you're not available today, the day that my world exploded. You have no way of knowing that everybody was going to go insane in my life todaY. I just hope I can hold in all the tears until tomorrow when I see you which seems impossibly far away right now and that I don't start crying when I hear your voice tomorrow.