I have gonne through this times and times again. When I attended high school and then university, when I was younger and went to summer camp.
So painfull. For many years I though I would click someday, I have come to understand I can't do it no matter what.

I am sorry you feel the same! It is really painfull...
I used to write in the bathroom's doors at highschool how sad and alone I felt... It was so common for me to hide in the bathrooms during breaks. Once during a conversation a colleague commented how intriguing it was... My secret.