Hi Reb, I actually did make a quick reply to this yesterday, but I see now it didn't go thru somehow. I'll pay closer attention today. what a doof.

Sure sounds like rapid cycling to me. How long it lasts is all to do with your own cycles. You don't know how long it lasts until you keep track of how long it lasts, if you see what I mean.

Sometimes I can immerse into something like a triple feature video day. If I can lose my attention completely into something for long enough, it can turn the trend away from continued deterioration.

If you're at the end of your rope about it, you might ask your doc for alonzopine (sp?). It's very effective against a wide variety of mental crisis states restoring one to calm rationality within an hour. It is effective for me in a bad spot, I know to ask for it when it's truly trouble time. I don't like to stay on it though.

Thats the only drug i ever recommend of any I was given in this process. No weeks long adjustment etc. And it seems to work on such a variety of escelations in "the force" of whatever it is that makes me crazy.

Other than that, my mission in life has to be maintaining vigilant watch over that space betwee who I am and how I feel. For me that's the big one.

Actually, before I post this, i guess i'd be some kind of hypocrite if i didn't also tell you straight up that in my experience marijuana goes a long way in mitigating more symptoms than any other remedy. There are studies even from Harvard Psych dept, suporting that.

So, I'll post this, and we can talk more, but i'm nervous I might be posting wrong, since I lost one yesterday.

peace