I don’t know what this could be. I don’t know if it’s dissociation, or what, but I know that it’s not good for me. If I focus on something, or get lost in my thoughts, the second I get back to reality is completely different. It feels so weird, and it takes forever to get back to normal again. I was getting ice cream out of one of those gallon boxes you buy, and I completely forgot to put the ice cream back in the freezer. It took me about 15 minutes to realize the mistake I had made, and then I couldn’t focus on cleaning up a mess from the dripping ice cream that was on the floor.
It’s just like I’m not all there. When I’m at school, I can feel really weird, and my emotions aren’t straight. I get these weird intrusive thoughts, and my mind is just all over the place. It’s almost to the point where it takes a decent amount of effort just to function.
I’m a shy, and introverted guy. I do have social anxiety, and possibly something along the lines of a depressive disorder. What could this be, and why do I feel like this?