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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
My thoughts feel like a pinball machine right now.
It feels like there are so many things on my mind, internally, that I’m trying to sort out and make sense of.
On top of that my life right now feels like a three ring monkey circus.
Kids. Husband. Grand baby. Issues. Issues. Issues.
I can’t find a space to sort my thoughts and feelings out.
It feels like I’m triggered continuously.
It’s not like I can just check out and go find some time for myself right now. I really can’t.
That’s the most unnerving part.
It feels like I don’t have an option or a choice.
I KNOW there is always a choice, but I don’t feel like I can make a choice for me right now.
I feel like I have to be what is needed.
I don’t want to be in this place.
My son and his wife divorced and the little one is with me during the day.
They, the parents, are not communicating and I’m in a really hard place.
They both want what they want for themselves.
I really should just delete this but I’m hoping someone can read through what I’ve shared and have some words of encouragement
I could go on but it would sound like drama.
I’m just tired and I want things to be ok.
No replies are needed.
I think I just needed to put it somewhere.
Thank you for hearing me.
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I have had situations that have caused me to feel trapped and without control. It's suffocating. I brought back a lot of anxiety and panic. What helped me was when I realized that I could chose anything. So I weighed my options and found that even though I was in a difficult position I still felt it was the right thing to be doing. That realization helped me to feel less trapped, and that I had more control than I knew. After having this epipehany I also realized that I needed to take care of us. So I made time to go to the gym, ride my bike and to be outside more. And it helped. I don't know if this is what you are going through. I just thought I would share something that I experienced that felt similar to what you are going through now. Feel better