Hi dazzle,
I'm so sorry about all of your losses. That sounds really hard. I'm glad you're starting to feel better and that you made the appointment. Waiting that long is tough, but you can get through it. I've recently been in a depression funk, and I'm just starting to feel better, too. One of the most effective things for me has been to try to put some structure in my day since I really don't have much to it right now, and to set achievable but small goals for each day. I've been amazed at how much better I feel with this. It's nice to feel competent when I've been feeling so slug-like and ineffective for weeks. I'm also making a big effort to get up at the same time everyday, and I do light therapy in the a.m. This has helped me get a bit better with my sleep patterns, because I also sleep way longer when I'm depressed. That feeds the feeling useless and slug-like, too, since I'm literally not up long enough to accomplish much.

I guess I'd recommend trying to focus on self-care, including giving yourself credit for doing even the little things; the routine things. And talk to others about your feelings about your mom, your cat, your job, etc. if it feels safe. Cry if you need to. Try to get some exercise and fresh air when you can. And be patient with yourself.

Good luck!

gg