It's 1:30 AM here so I apologize if I don't make sense, but I wanted to reply to your post so that you know you are heard. You're not the awful things she said about you. You're stronger than you think. You survived terrible abuse and what she did to you wasn't right or normal behavior. You don't have to forgive her if you don't want to.

You posted "I will no longer be a victim." Let that be your mantra. Refuse to give up. Keep posting on the forum. You deserve to find your voice and your power.