I'm a master of nita saying thungs I want to say. Im ashamed, scared, embarrassed, think I might be too needy, not worth anyone's empathy, and the list is longer than that.
I'm perfect at minimizing my pain in from of my T, but she has caught on fast and stops me.

I decuded a while back that I want to be honest, as honest as I'd never been, with her. My only way to so so was to write it down. I struggled to give it to her, i was scared, worried, embarrassed. ... Nur ut went really well. After that, we had one if the best sessions ever (not fun, but very helpful)... I tikd her to keep what I wrote and go back to it when im back to not talking necause I kisted the severe issuea on the paper. When she asks me, its easier for me to give her an honest answer than just talking. And I want nothing mire to be honest. If not with her, it wont work with anyone.

If you can't say it, maybe you can get started writing it down. Its liberating and comforting to be honest with a good T. I hope you can exoerience that soon.