My letter to my 25-year-old self was very interesting. I was a bit let down, but I think that's a good thing. I did not write it the day I turned 20; I wrote it because when I was working at an elementary school my group of kids wrote letters to their future self and I wanted to do the same for me. I talked about not wanting children because I was scared of childbirth (now, I still am but more willing to go through the process) and that I was afraid to pass on my bipolar gene (which I am no longer afraid of this). I talked about taking a class on different types of contraception and that I was thinking about the IUD. I talked about how much I wanted to travel and that I urged my 25-year-old self to do so. I talked about marriage, I talked about my current crushes and that they were leading no where, and I talked about the standards I wanted to set for myself in choosing a partner, and that I wanted a long engagement. I gave myself advice after then only being 2 years of diagnosed with bipolar to stick to the meds no matter if I am "feeling better" and if I am feeling down, to never give up.

I was most bummed about not knowing more of what I was like at 20, but in some senses I did, just not in as much detail as I'd like. I have a feeling if I wrote a letter to my 30 year old self, I'd have to think about what I'd be like at 30, because my experiences and thoughts I had at 20 were very different than I'd think now, so I think for this next letter, I'll focus more on how my life is going and not so much what I hope to accomplish by 30. It was still very interesting to read.