I find this a bit odd, too—would you really feel like "so be it" if she did terminate you? I get that you don't think she will, of course. But it sounds really defiant in a way, like you know you're going against her wishes and you're also testing her power over you, seeing if there are any real consequences (and suspecting there aren't). I thought the question about how your parents handled conflicts/disobedience was a good one.