Had a big legal meeting today, so got to see T outside of the office in his role as divorce coach. (We are towards the beginning of a 17 day break in therapy.)

He is definitely not my T when I see him outside of therapy. No doubt about that. He is just a normal guy, a professional serving a function for me in the meeting. He sat next to my H today, and I was on the opposite side of the table at the far end from them. He was just a guy with a role. It's funny, when I first began this dual role stuff, I thought it would be hard to see T outside of his office because I would feel like he was still my T and I would not know how to act, like I wasn't sure I could interact with him "normally" on the outside. But what has happened instead is kind of the opposite. He has become harder to interact with in therapy because his coach role carries over to our session. Sometimes he just seems more like a coach to me than a therapist, even in session. The dual roles are "dueling", and the coach role is winning.

The whole thing is strange.