I have had 2300 calories today. I weigh 178 pounds. This is good. I am getting closer to maintaining my weight. I just want to gain weight slowly. I have had some 2500 calorie days. For the next few days, I am going to shoot for 2300 calories. I used the weight calculator to determine that 2037 calories to maintain my weight, and 2537 calories will have me gain one pound a week. I am paranoid that I will gain too much weight too quickly, and at worse, end up the 235 pounds that I once was. I am pretty illogical with this belief, but this is what I have been feeling.

PS Ever since I took care of my mother, which ended a half year ago, I have been paranoid about some things. I do not know why.