I'm not sure this belongs in OCD, but I don't know a better category.

A therapist previously tried to help me with another memory by talking extensively about it in a specific way (instead of suppressing it), so I want to try something similar with this one.

It was about 15 years ago. I sat at the dinner table together with my mother, father and sister. My father said something about my sister, I don't remember what, and suddenly I blurted out "Ejaculation".

I don't know, why. Well, I suspect it has to do with being over-stressed from school, being a teen, having to constantly interact with people whose company I didn't like, both home and at school.

But it's not much use excusing that outburst to myself. The people who were witness to it, are still in my life and are regular reminders (one might say "triggers"), although I suspect they themselves don't remember. Also when in a movie there's a scene where a character says something inappropriate, that can demolish me, too, by bringing back the memory.

The way the therapist's method worked, she told me to first mentally place myself in the memory, then gradually distance myself, until the scene disappears. The problem is, I can't quite get to the start. I don't remember the context. I only remember what I said. I'm not even sure that it was those exact people present... Maybe it doesn't matter.

Anyway, here's my attempt at dealing with it.