I don’t really know where to exactly put this but most of my problems see, to be related to my anxiety so figured I’d post it here. Now because of my anxiety I depersonalize. However yesterday at school it didn’t feel like my typical depersonalizing usually I feel like I’m in someone else’s body and someone is talking for me and my body parts aren’t mine. Yesterday I started with a rapid heart beat and my learning leader put her Apple Watch on my wrist cuz she has an app on there that detects your heart beat. Mine was 143. It eventually went down to 90. But my hands began to shake more violently through out the day. When I started getting anxiety it didn’t feel like how I usually feel like I’m surrounded by things that want to attack me. It instead felt like I was being chased. When i finally began to break I went into the break room to text my mom to come and get me. When I was walking in the hallway I suddenly felt like I wasn’t in reality. It hit me like a train. But I realized it didn’t feel like my particular depersonalizing experience. I didn’t feel like I was in someone else’s body. Everything seemed to look weird i don’t know how to particularly describe it. Like it was distorted. I began feeling as if I was in a dream and I slowly became more convinced I was dreaming. I kept thinking this wasn’t reality nothing was real. I had a lot of trouble speaking I’d forget what I had just said in the middle of a sentence and completely forget what I was trying to say or was about to say. When I had to go with my mom for Christmas shopping before my sister got off work I felt like any mi Ute my legs were going to give out and collapse. I felt like I couldn’t walk properly I had to hold onto my mom to make sure I was walking right. I kept obsessing over my shaking hands kept checking my pulse to see if it was going up. I tried not to think about it but I couldn’t stop. This morning it started off like yesterday but today I had something new happen. No matter how many deep breaths I took I felt like my body wasn’t receiving oxygen I felt as if I was legitimately suffocating. I have no clue what happened so I have no clue what could have caused this.