Christmas is coming and I am finding difficult to go out side because seeing people and their families makes me realize how alone i am. I miss my son, my sister, my grandchildren and my friends. I don't think about it most of the time but for the next few days if will be difficult to ignore. I know, with the exception of my son, that these people love me and miss me too. I just not the same as a warm conversation or a hug. I get through it, I'm just in an odd place in my mind.