Today's T session really disturbed me and i dont know how to deal with it, so i'd really need some help/opinions, PLEASE.
My T has been completely honest about what she thinks of me and i absolutely HATE it. her words really enraged me because i felt invalidated/misunderstood or "caught". she noticed it but kept going. here's my thinking:
1) why is what another person thinks of me so important to me? if i think she's wrong, why bother? she doesnt know "THE TRUTH"
2) but if it hurt/angered me so much, it must be because she hit a nerve. so there must be at least SOME truth in what she said....
i really REALLY dont like it, but i think i could maybe eventually accept it with time.... only that i dont know how to go on from here?
i feel like punishing her by not going to next appt, or going but not really talking or quitting therapy altogether. i see no point in continuing with her if what she sees doesnt match with what i see (or what i want for her to see).
she already knows this was my reaction to her words, so keeping talking about it next time seems useless to me.
any thoughts or advices? please?
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