I had an exhausting day doing the food shop for christmas and unpacking it when I got home.My whole body hurts and is full of tension,in particular my neck,shoulders and back and legs hurt,they hurt a lot.

I am overtired but can't relax,I am wound up,fed up of being alone and having to do everything myself,my muscles ache,my eyes are heavy,my breathing laboured.I am trying to rest but my mind won't stop worrying and going over my fears.I am emotionally drained and conflicted,I need to relax and recuperate,rebuild my strength and emotional stamina.

It is Friday 22nd December I am home until Tuesday,I will be on my own tomorrow,sunday xmas eve and Monday xmas day.Boxing day I am going to see a film and preparing food for the 27th,my niece is coming and we are having our xmas day meal and opening presents.I am overtired so I feel like crying,I want to chat but there is no one here to chat to.

I may just fall asleep now cos I am so tired....I am certainly going to lie down on the sofa,I hurt a lot though both physically and emotionally,I don't know what to do to help myself feel better!I wish there was someone here to give me a physical body massage,the tension between my shoulders is too much.