Hi everyone,

I'm not really sure where to post this, since it could possibly fit into a number of forums on PsychCentral, so I apologize if it's not in the right place but I'm confused and the main problem is hearing a voice in my head so there you go.

The voice in my head claims to be a famous musician and has told me a ton of stuff about his childhood. I can't prove that this stuff really happened to the actual celebrity, but the voice has told me countless stories of extreme physical, emotional, and sexual abuse by his stepfather. I have had issues with my own family, including my stepfather, but I don't think this voice is actually a symptom or evidence of dissociative identity disorder. In other words, the incidents he has described didn't happen to me.

That being said, I don't think the voice is a typical schizophrenic voice. I have heard other voices before while in psychotic mania, and interestingly enough the regular voice I hear becomes mute whenever I'm psychotic or severely manic, especially if I'm also in the hospital. He also "sounds" different than the other random voices I've heard; I guess the best way to describe his voice is like the voice one would hear while reading silently rather than a bombardment of angry voices that sound like they're coming from outside of my head.

I've been on almost every medication known to psychiatry and have also been in therapy for over 15 years. Most "experts" have told me that the musician's voice is a delusion brought on by my own trauma as well as my admiration for this musician. Antipsychotic medication doesn't get rid of him but gets rid of the other, more random voices and racing thoughts.

I don't really know what I'm looking for as far as advice. It doesn't seem like anyone really knows why the voice claims to be a famous musician, or why he would tell me a lot of horrible stories from his past. I guess I would just like to know if anyone has experienced something even remotely similar to what I experience.

Thanks for reading this. I'm sorry if this post doesn't make much sense, as I'm trying to describe 15+ years of this situation in a short amount of time, but if I need to clarify some things for you, please feel free to ask questions or send me a private message. Thanks again.