Hey. I'm sorry... But I can't remember what the rupture was...
Sounds like it is still really fresh, and that it will take some time to heal, yeah.
Of course... While it is partly a response to the present (present hurt) it hurts so much because it is tapping into a response to the past (past hurt). The intensity of the hurt... Will be coming from the past...

Connection and disconnection and connection and disconnection over and over again...

It is meant to get better with time. Every time there is a disconnection and a repair it is meant to be a little easier the time after that. Gently does it.

I'm sorry you are hurting. Take extra special gentle care of yourself.