Yeah, what Angela said. When I read your post the gut feeling I got was how unfair it is for her to ask you to do that. It is only hurting you and making it more difficult for you to quit because when you do have a lapse it causes the whole cycle of self blame. By asking you to quit she isn't asking you to do "just one thing" she is asking you to change everything about yourself. Cutting is not a habit all by itself, exclusive and alone. We cut because of what is going on inside. AND in order for a person to come to the point of needing to cut there is TONS of stuff that must be dealt with inside ourselves. So please don't beat yourself up, just buckle down and work on those things that lay under the habit and know that you are doing what she asked but one step at a time.
Carrie
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