Thanks, Velcro--good to know you enjoy reading them! I worry that people are like, "Oh no, another LT In Session post! zzzz" It does help me process things to type them out.

The thing is, there have been periods where some good marriage counseling stuff has happened--including a few weeks ago. But I think the fact that I'm like, "Hey, good marriage counseling stuff happened this week!" suggests that it's more the exception than the rule. Or even if it's, say, 50% of the time, still...

At the end of our last MC session, MC seemed uncertain as to whether we'd want to come back, though he said he hoped to keep working with us. I admit that before that session, because of what had happened in the phone call and the session after (because it didn't resolve things enough), I hadn't been sure. But we went ahead and scheduled for Jan. 3.

I had a talk with H after my T session Wed., and we discussed what to do about MC. I think we're going to try spacing apart sessions more (2 weeks...3 weeks...a month) and see how that goes. Helps that we don't see him for over 2 weeks since the last session. That way, as H put it, he's still there if we need him, like if we have some major conflict. Even if it gets to a point where we're basically seeing him once every 2 months. I asked H if he'd be willing to see a different marriage counselor, and he said he wouldn't want to right away--that he'd want like a 6-month break before seeing a new one (when I'd asked him before, he hadn't seemed open to ever seeing a different one, so...progress I guess?)

I think we just need to try seeing him less often and see how it feels for me... I suppose there's the concern it could somehow intensify my attachment, or make me want to contact him between sessions more, but we'll deal with that if it gets there.

I really think having T on board with me will help immensely. I just feel like, for whatever reason, ex-T couldn't seem to help me with that...so that contribute to my getting "stuck." Hoping current T can help me get "unstuck..."