t, i don't like how we left things last night. not saying it was bad, i mean we weren't fighting or arguing or anything like that, but it just wasn't.... i dunno. i was happy when i got there, it felt good to share the work i've done the past 5 weeks with you... but when i left i was sad and feeling trapped. why do i feel this way t? why? what is it about you? what is it about this relationship? what is wrong with me? why can't i just let myself be happy, say no you are wrong, thank you for everything but i am not coming back, merry-christmas-happy-rest-of-your-life-goodbye?