I regret it all the time. I knew I wasn't good before the accident a year ago I knew I had a horrible childhood and early adulthood I suffered with depression and Suicidal Tendencies my entire life and I was barely holding on but little did I know how bad it would become. I started therapy to get over a major car accident a year ago. Since then I've learned that I do feel emotions I used to be numb now I feel painful emotions all the time which really sucks my therapist said this means I'm getting better feeling emotions is better than being numb I hate it. I've also discovered I have DID which I guess in some ways I I knew things were weird with me but I wasn't aware of most of my alters until about 5-6 months ago this is opened up a whole new can of worms. I have flashbacks constantly now which before I was in Pleasant denial and now most of the time. So overall yes I've opened many cans of worms that I can't put back together I've opened Pandora's Box I can't go back the only option now is to walk through hell to get to the other side. I regret ever starting therapy most days.

I ask my therapist last week if he felt I've made any progress and he was shocked at the question and said I've made all kinds of progress and proceeded to tell me everything I I've done that's better than a year ago. So for now I will believe his professional opinion and keep going with the "work". Hopefully I will start to feel the progress soon. At the time being more self-aware for me it's just a big painful pain in the ***.