I dont think I have anything helpful to say but I felt compelled to respond, because I know what its like to want and need a response. I've been suffering from some killer anxiety lately so thats how I feel as well.

Get yourself some help, distract yourself, listen to music... find ways to quell these feelings you're having...

...I am probably not being helpful.

I just want you to know there are people listening and understanding if even we dont have anything helpful to say.

I'll keep you in my thoughts. I hope you feel better soon.