I didn't know that I've been dealing with paranoid schizophrenia until a couple of months ago while doing some research. The symptoms mentioned were dead on accurate to what I deal with and how I perceive my environment. Thing is though I have been this way since I was 3 and am now pushing 46. I have had to learn on my own how to distinguish fantasy from reality and it has been rough. Now that I know how to do this though and have learned how to do other things that I wont mention here to avoid upsetting anyone, I have no desire to have something to help smother my condition. I have strong and deep running emotions that make me feel this way. The paranoid part is the only part that becomes too intense sometimes and leads to anxiety. Other than that I'm cool with it but, I'm also half mad because of my past experiences and other mental problems so, that may be influencing my decisions.