Kava is to bring me down when I'm overstimulated.
Kratom is for primarily physical pain, but also depression, mild stimulant and PTSD.
Yerba is for reduced caffeine energy and depression. It's almost an MAOI, but only almost.
5-HTP is temporary mood boost, but a calm one.
You know what all the rest is for.
If this is what it takes to push my way through, I'll do it. I honestly need an antidepressant right now, but nobody will give me one. So, I'm getting my own from nature. I go almost hyper-robotic on this cocktail. Nothing phases me much and I need that right now.
My BP is actually very low at the moment. It's 87/63 after resting for 2 minutes. Pulse is high, caffeine-induced somewhat, at 115. My usual resting is around or even just below 60. Low BP can cause the body to raise heart rate to try to push more of what's normally carried by the blood to its destination. Normally my BP is roughly 115/78.