Hi Abusedtoy,

I just wanted to say that my heart goes out to you and anyone else who suffers C-PTSD.

I resonate with almost all of what you say, minus (of course) your own personal traumas. The post-trauma experience that you describe above so well is exactly how I feel since a trauma a few years ago.

As a fellow survivor, I empathize greatly and share your frustration and anger about all of these matters. Today I was so triggered I punched my wall. The emotions and the physiological symptoms drive me nuts. I can do intense exercise, burn off cortisol and feel amped up ten minutes later. There's no end to this pain and suffering. Constantly having to accept the trauma's, learn to tolerate the pain and suffering and radically accept the past and grieve the life I always wanted but probably will never have. It is heartbreaking. I have to find a way to cope and live with being super sensitive and hyper-vigilant at all times. It is a truly unfair, helpless and exhausting experience. I get so angry at my abusers and I will never get justice. It makes me so sad and makes me feel so alone. So I am SO happy I stumbled on your thread because it is SO relevant.

I hope you have a good day and find peace and calm inside the storm.

HD7970ghz