Thanks for sharing this. I'm sorry you had to struggle through all of this. I was an only child. And my parents are both long since gone now. I also sometimes think back to that child who was the young me so many decades ago. And it makes to sad too. I'm glad you were finally able to gain some clarification with regard to your Pure O type of OCD. Have you seen family therapist Kati Morton's Pure O video on her YouTube channel? If not, here's a link: