I'm sorry you feel you can't talk, here on PC, about whatever this is. But I understand. There is so much I would like to be able to talk about... here, there, or anywhere. But I just can't. I was brought up, oh so many years ago, to understand that one simply does not air one's dirty laundry in public, as they used to say. And even though I'm now pushing 70, I still can't do it. The few times I've tried, in real life, it just didn't turn out well. And the few times I've posted this sort of thing, here on PC, I became embarrassed & had to ask to have it taken down. I hope you find someone with whom you can share what happened. I know how this sort of thing can eat away at you.