I am on the same boat. After a decade of solitude, a lot of scientific and academic reading, I have come to the conclusion that not everyone is meant to have a partner. Some people are better off staying single and without a partner. I believe that I am one of them.
My issue is not merely not having a sexual drive. My issue goes deeper than that. Being in a relationship, while can potentially provide a loving and a healing environment, creates more anxiety for me. I lose my balance and go off track.
I am much better of being single and surrounded by my solitude. This is not to say that I do not want to have a healthy relationship but it is very hard to find and I am willing to put absolutely no effort into finding one that is worth sacrificing my solitude.
You know how they say ‘you will find it when you aren’t looking for it?’ It is absolutely not true. I have never looked and that is a perfect path to staying in my solitude.
To close off, i have to also add that being in a relationship helps with personal development and maturity. But, navigating life alone and in solitude does also have a very valuable role in developing resilience and self sufficiency.
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[B]'Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always.'
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