Hey. Happy almost Xmas eve.
Not really sure how I am. My parents did some visiting today so I had the day to myself. I slept away a lot of it. Guess I was tired.

Have Xmas eve at my relatives house and I don't really want to go. I always feel sort of uncomfortable and like I have nothing to say amongst lthis part of my family. Or maybe I just feel sort of blah, and I know I am supposed to be festive and chatty. Part of me would prefer doing Xmas eve with just me and my cats watching it's a wonderful life.

Lately I have been having really vivid and detailed dreams that I remember when I wake up. Maybe I'm just finally dreaming again? Idk.

Mood feels a little bit all over the place. I just wish I felt normal.