Please don't move this thread to the Sleep Issues forum. It is about not letting a disturbing dream influence the way you trust your pdoc or tea - I am not asking for dream interpretation.
It is easy to get me worrying. I'll think something is perfectly safe, then I either imagine a scenario where it isn't, or I hear some scenario where it isn't, and then I keep thinking in the back of my mind: so it COULD happen.
I dreamed about my pdoc. He started mean and threatening, a whole public show, but in private it turned out he was just manipulating me and he thought it for the best (Denying me my meds - that I'd just started Friday. He'd encased them in a block of 6 kg and if I took it and survived on my own for 6 days (wearing just shoes socks trousers pants bra tshirt) I'd get them back. And oh, he'd taped the information I was goinng to use a week later (in 6 days I'd get back with the box, so the presentation would be the day after) in a presentation at school to the box, so I could prepare.
Managed to plead to bring a garbage bag for cover for the first night, as it was already dark out so I wouldn't be able to find anything, and I wanted to sleep. I'd bring it back in the morning. And then tomorrow try to make or find somethimg in the woods to use as a blanket. That was allowed.
It was very clear that if I didn't do as he told and intended I'd never get my medication again.
I am afraid that this dream will influence me. I trust my pdoc enormously, and when we disagree or does/says something I don't like, I can always view that through trust-coloured glasses, because I know he is trustworthy, extremely non-manipulative, has the best intentions and is a big believer in, and proponent of, autonomy.
I am afraid that this dream will make me doubt his honesty should something happen in the future. I don't want that to happen. Has anyone experienced something similar (doesn't have to involve a dream, any factor might do)? Or does anyone have tips in general?
I've written out the dream in much detail so I can show it to him should there ever be a need.
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