pacydem, You skeptical??? nooo? LOL and yes I caught your post before it was deleted LOL!

Yes yoru correct until the next time, but each time I am faced with this I get a new memory of how it was dealt with and met to go on. Will this memory work next time? Well lets just say this time I went through this torment clean and sober, thats a big step forward..so it does work on one level...perhaps you'd like to say whats going on for you at the moment for you to feel this way???