Aww bluesy sorry if there is a delay - some of us live in different parts of the world and so don't get on at the same time as you guys in the US and at others, well sometimes it is hard to post a reply because either words won't work or we don't know what to say because we are struggling ourselves.
But that does not mean that we don't care a lot!! Of course we do, just be patient with us - i try hard to come here and post but sometimes i can only read because i feel my words are useless.
I wish i could fix everything for you, believe me if i could i would do it for you right now, as i would for everyone on this site but sometimes all i can really offer is to listen. I understand so much that things are hard for you, the pain in your posts is evident but i fear there isn't a quick fix. Sometimes to get the best results we have to put in the time and effort. Maybe in the short term there are good and bad ways to help ourselves which i'm sure people on here can help you with, but for long term benefits it may take a lot of work and dedication - but there is an way out - believe me!!
I know this isn't what you want to hear, when i get told this i get angry and frustrated because it doesn't seem fair that not only have i struggled up till now i have to struggle more to help myself. Why can't someone else just do it for me??! But unfortunately i am learning all these people are right. There is a lot of support and help out there for you but i'm afraid it is only you that can change things.
What methods have you used so far? Have you changed anything about your lifestyle, e.g. joining a new activity, doing charity work? I know it sounds silly but honestly these things will help but you have faith that it will.

Please continue posting here, also try reading around other people's posts so you can see what other people are trying to overcome, and maybe from that you can gain courage and belief that you can feel better and that you are not alone struggling. The people on this site i have found care immensely, we all support each other at one time or another - maybe around you will find someone you relate to and can simply post a few words to them. Knowing just a few words could potentially help someone will give you a sense of worth. And you deserve to feel that because you are a nice, kind guy. Remember that!!