Hi again. Hey I'm realizing since I admitted that stuff in my email, another factor in this needing to leave you. (multi-faceted, isn't it?) The newest factor that if/when I act on it I will let you know, is that I'm thinking maybe I need to work with someone else now. A male t. Because of the animus stuff and mostly because of the wishing we could be friends thing that gets in the way for me. I know I've never wanted to consider that before when you've mentioned it in the past. But I'm in a place now where I'm ready to be open to that idea. I'm not going to see anybody for awhile though. I need some more time to just be me in the world and also how shall I say this, clean my palate maybe? before I start again with a different t. We'll see how it goes. I love you, t. And I imagine that I always will. I wish I had not forgotten to bring in the letter I wrote you. Maybe I will mail it.