Thank you for your reactions and stories!
Talking about it to him appears to be a good idea, at least in theory. My main problem is is that formally he isn't my therapist, he is my doctor. (At appointments we usually spend most of the time discussing therapy-y issues and only part discussing medication, but still..) If I had had this dream about my T, I'd talk to her about it in a heartbeat. But my pdoc is (at least on paper) treating my medically.. not 'relationally' the way a T (even a CBT T) does.
However I think I will bring it up, just a little differently. I read your reactions (thanks again!!) and I think (as much as I don't believe in dream interpretation, I think this one can be 'interpreted') I dreamt this because of the following: I started new medication on Friday. If it worsened my symptoms (agitation, make me psychotic, dramatic increase of depression and stuff like that) I would have to stop immediately. If I got worse but not enough to warrant an emergency stop, I might have to stop on Wednesday (when I see him again). I think my dream was my brain's way of telling me "You're worried that he'll misinterpret something you did as getting worse, or that you'll coincidentally do something stupid and he'll see that as a result of the new medication and make you quit, whereas it might actually have provided relief if you'd stayed on it for a few more days". And I can talk about that. Say I think I'm worried about that (how silly does that sound? "I think I'm worried?") and ask to agree he'll listen to me and not overreact or something. He will, but I think it will help me if it's spelled out.
Again, thank you very much!!
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