With every therapist I’ve had, I’ve had a certain level of attachment and transference with them. Transference in the sense that I start to see them as kind of like my mom and I just want them to take care of me/in a weird way want them to just adopt me or something idk. Not in a sexual way at all. I know it’s illogical. I’ve yet to have a therapist that’s even old enough to be my mom. But I guess they just have cared for me in a way that no one else has.

For awhile, I was keeping my current T at a distance because I didn’t want this to happen again, because my last T hurt me very, very bad and used what I opened up to her about against me. But recently I realized how unhelpful that is in making progress and opened up to her a lot. Now I’m scared because I’m feeling attached/clingy to her again. She’s been so, so great in helping me and showing she cares about me recently. I want her to protect me from everything bad in life, but I know that she can’t. And I’m afraid she’ll change and hurt me like last T did. I don’t want to feel attached or dependent on her.

Anyway, I feel like a freak. I hope I’m not the only person that feels this way about their T.