So, he is coming tomorrow and we talked this morning. I was manic and irritable but he was accommodating. I took my medication and calmed down. I don't know. I think we will know if we will click in the first hour or so when we meet. But, I promised to be with him five days. I can't just leave him alone. He is coming all the way from the states. I am anxious and may need to run around to release my anxiety. I ate a nice Christmas meal with herb roast chicken, dutch apple pie, and coffee. I am happy. Sometimes I wonder who needs a man? But, I am lonely and got myself into this situation. My family is in the states too. So, this will probably be the last time I meet someone from another country if it does not work out. I am not interested in hurting anybody or being hurt. I will go with the flow. I am expecting nothing, but am hoping for the best. Merry Xmas!!