I see you have PTSD. I have complex PTSD. I think this is the problem in my case.

My mother verbalized her SI for as long as I can remember, and she didn’t want to be responsible for me. So that pattern of thinking is ingrained. It is a struggle not to go there.

I’ve been using DBT from the DBT Connections videos as well as suggestions from my therapist to help.

Adding lithium to my med regimen has really been helpful too, as well as the gabapentin.