Thank you both so much.

i feel like i dont matter to anyone, no one cares... you feel closer to me than people IRL, its so lonely.

and honestly this time i dont feel i deserved it, since i've been kind to anyone i've met. it doesnt mean anything then, since nobody cares anyway.

im thankful for you, for this forum, and i wish you and anyone who reads this, a Merry Christmas, hoping that if you're lonely it makes you feel less alone.

Best wishes to anyone
[group hug]