Thank you Amandalouise,

I appreciate you sharing your own experiences with life and in therapy.

I don't know much about the IFS modality; it is news to me that IFS leans towards suppressing the pain of the exiles / little / trauma parts. So far my therapist has been facilitating my little part, allowing me to show up with my teddy bears in sessions and wrap up in blankeys. Perhaps what you are referring to takes place at a later stage of recovery, which I suppose might make sense if the goal is to no longer need to regress when under stress.

I definitely don't resonate with full on DID alters / parts, however, the parts that I have do have their own needs, wants and desires and there is a lot of ambivalence between them. Sometimes I will spend all day in my little space coping with stress and giving my little side what it wants, but as a result, I will experience guilt and shame for not doing more adult-like things. It's as though I cannot find a happy medium to do; I'm damned it I do and damned if I don't. My therapist is currently helping me to identify my parts and learn what it is they need, want and desire. I believe the goal is to provide balance for my parts so that I am not always stuck in little-space or adult-space.

Thanks,
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