The holidays are so hard esp the Christmas holiday i just miss my Mom soooo much its hurts and i feel empty ,im so sad today wish i could just be with her instead i feel a regret for not being able to convince my mom to not let go like she did i feel its my fault she did but yet she was suffering and super ill she does not need to be suffering so greatly .

I am crying as i write this i feel so lost now i just have no idea what to do i miss her soooo much im heartbroken she raised me up to be the person i am today i miss her so much i cant handle it .

im so much in pain im mad at God for taking her .