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Originally Posted by sinking
I thought i had my defenses up, that i was kind and caring but also keeping people at the right distance, that nobody could hurt me anymore....
why does this always happen? any interaction, even the smallest one ends up hurting me. even a paid one (with my T)! im SO tired.
what do i do? maybe i should just let it all go, but why do i always have to let it go? it isnt right, or fair.
and im so tired of feeling so alone, lonely, invisible, hurt, mad and sad. im tired of having a broken heart because of... anyone (IRL)! im tired of hurting because of people. and im tired of my own feelings.
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No, it's not fair or right, my dear. I am so sorry you're hurting so much. You're getting it from various directions all at once.
Try to just take care of YOU... do something, anything, that will distract you from the pain and help you to feel better. A feel good movie perhaps???? A hot cup of hot chocolate and a warm bubble bath with candles and soothing music??
And perhaps you can mention to your family how you are feeling? Or how they have made you feel? Would you feel comfortable doing so?