Yes, but I don't think it's for the same reasons as most of the others here.

I just feel like... it's been this long dangling out of hope that has never materialized. Like, it got my hopes up for a reality that just isn't within reach. And after a couple decades of "trying" and not even being able to get a foot in the door (i.e. find a therapist that is able to work with me in any way that feels useful, or that seems to understand me)... I just feel sad and more hopeless.