Well my day just turned to **** .. ** trigger**I found out about an hour ago one of my brothers committed suicide today ** trigger** I’m at a loss for words and can’t stop thinking about him. I just talked to him last night and he seemed upset but not enough to where he would do anything extreme. Apparently I was wrong. My family already went through one funeral in November when my grandma passed away from cancer and now this one. I’m not sure if I can handle it and might need to go IP if I get to stressed out from everything. Now every Christmas this is the memory I will have ..