My family got together for a meal Christmas Eve and a good time was had by all. We got together again today to do presents. I so rarely get in a bad mood but boy howdy was I in one today! The only thing I could do was to be polite, stay very quiet and only speak when spoken to. Shortly after opening presents I excused myself and went to another room until everybody said their goodbyes and left. I’m the “nice guy” and everybody was just so confused. I feel really bad about it and so incredibly guilty and ashamed.

My sister tried to start something with me and I gave her a look and a one word answer and she shut right up. That is so unlike me. She said she was sorry I was so stressed out as she hugged me goodbye. I hope I can forgive myself at some point for being human and having human failings. Right now...not so much. I feel like a jerk.