Golden Eve, thank you for saying its not fair or right, and seeing im getting it from various directions all at once. your support almost made me cry. Im often worried i exaggerate things. Its nice to feel validated.

As for taking care of myself, i've been thinking on how to respond to that friend that made me feel used and it made me feel better. Im also kind of being passive aggressive with family and even though i know its wrong, it makes me feel better since i show my needs and wants to them. Ive also realized thanks to Seesaw that i was probably expecting too much from everybody else.

I cant talk about this with family or anybody else. Thats why i posted on here. As for my T im more and more convinced i want to quit, or at least to tell this to T and see how she responds...