Right now i cant stand my family. Im always an outsider with them and they dont care about me. Im sick of having to please them and do what they want even if i dont.

That friend disappeared and im planning on disappearing too until he'll come back (if he does) and i'll let him know how he made me feel.

As for work and colleagues... im tired.

Im just glad this was my last xmas. Im not planning on living another year. Just need to hold on a little longer until everything is ready...